I
start realizing how enlightment happens while on a journey. Being far removed
from your small “reality” shows you that there is not such a thing. Nothing exists
but in creation. Although we perceive our lives as a constant parade of things
that come our way, we are making all this up.
I
think back to a year ago, when I believed my life was a little room in front of
the National Zoo, a job that pushed me to desperation, my yoga mat, and lovely
afternoons in the park. I thought that if all that disappeared, I would too.
Exactly the same I felt when my life was a little room on calle 6, a waiter job
at El Ayuntamiento café, my bicycle, and my dreams to see the world. Now I live
for the third time in a totally new scenario -little room (this one is a
constant) overlooking a valley and the pinkest skies, wind on my face riding a motorcycle,
little kids, and occasional deeps in a warm ocean. My life is equally small,
peaceful, hopeful, and I have not disappeared, I am the same.
I
wonder what I will be creating next. Well, I am hoping for something bigger
than a little room; maybe a huge playground in nature, laughter in flowery
fields, a loving community, many dogs and cats and pigs and chickens, lots of
yoga, nurturing food, and the fondest memories of a big, big world…
Sunrise, from my current window
Ay Florcita, es tan emocionante lo que contás! Será porque he sentido parecido. Porque he tenido miedo de "dejar", miedo a recomenzar. Y finalmente podemos, eso y más. Y volvemos a ser felices. Y podemos ser felices de muchas y diferentes maneras. Y es maravilloso. Me alegro por vos.
ReplyDeleteGracias Lu! Si, ya me entendes :)
DeleteI am going to say what Ron always says... "Be careful what you wish for", and I am going to add that is best feeling in the whole wide world...tqm an miss you
ReplyDeleteGracias Lore! XOXO a vos y a Ron Damon!
DeleteThe greatest room within you (and each of us) is the one borne from direct experience, regardless the joys and heartaches. That room is full of wisdom, love, kindness, compassion, joy, and many things that make the world small and large at the same time. Small because our selves disappear into a vast wake where feeling unimportant (which seems at first frightening but) is contrary to everything we've grown accustomed to seeking; large because our thoughts, speech, and actions are interwoven. So our lives fade to imagination, things that former selves clinged to or hoped for selfishly and only for the self. And from that realization we bring peace and beauty. May your journeys always be blessed!
ReplyDeleteCheers!For bigger rooms that can hold infinite LOVE!
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